I'm Outta Here

Final after two months, I went out of Lansing!

First stop: Cider Mill.

When we arrived there, turns out all the apple was harvested cuz' of the hot weather. Understandable. Then they (the seniors) brought us to another place in Charlotte county. It was a pretty long journey. I got to see Mich! and not just Lansing. Outside of Lansing is pretty much a countryside. Everything is brown and dying, fall - duh. Our picture at Cider Mill:

Next stop, Country Mill somewhere in Charlotte. We paid $13 for a bag and picked away. Manage to fill three quarter of the bag and it is too heavy to carry. I did bought half a gallon Apple Cider. I never taste apple cider before. I have no idea how it would taste like. Also, I dont like to eat fruit unless it is processed. Freak. The point of me joining this trip is, I am so over Lansing. Need some fresh new view. So yeah, I dont eat apple and I went apple picking. 

Here's some random picture from the trip. 

p/s: I can't get over the song Akad by Payung Teduh. Well, love all the cover version better than the original one but wth. 

One Lucky Girl

My wonderful chubby-almost-bald boyfriend introduced me to this video. The guy is good looking and he has an amazing voice. I got an instant cursh on him the other day. His name is amir hasan. It seems like the name 'amir' - or ameer, always catches my heart. 

I just found out that one of my friends broke up with her ex cuz' the relationship was 'toxic'. I dont wanna talk about her just want to tell my story. I've been in one of those relationship before. I was with this 'ustaz'. He is pretty religious and it was the worst relationship ever! I know whoever knew my relationship history would think it was my other ex. Sorry to disappoint. That ex treat me better than this ustaz guy. 

Anyway, this toxic relationship kinda like a drug to me. I was suffering inside but I can't enough of it. There is still a little dose left in my system. He suffocate me and left, but he always find his way back to me. I dont know what better way to describe it but for me toxic relationship was not with a bad boy like everyone would expect but with a religious good guy who supposed to be prince charming.  Technically he is a prince charming, at least that is how everyone sees him. 

Lesson learnt. I do prefer bad boys who shows his true color with me and the people around him. No more angelic faced boys with hidden darkness. 

Oh, I know they won't read this but I just to get it out of my chest. My high school years are the worst years of my life. Thanks to the individuals who made it that way. 'Care' but doesn't know the freakin line. No I NEVER appreciate what you guys have done nor I would forget it. My grades was down cuz of you guys, and not that pride that I'm here because of you too. Know that it is NOT! I know how to separate  my personal life and my study, I still know. I fuckin know that you don't believe it but fuck yeah its my life bitch. 

No, Ameer is not a saint, he is a satan. I get every shades of him and he gets the best side and the worst side of me. He handled them amazingly well. I'm one lucky girl. 

Skipped Class

I purposely skipped a class! Wohoo... Its a common thing here and the lecturer could not care less. So we are good. Hopefully I would not skip anymore classes. For the record the class is BORING. I would usually stay on my phone most of the time. Thank god for fast internet. One of my seniors is also in the class, hopefully he didn't notice that I'm missing. 

I just realized that the only thing I can cook is pasta. Err... Pasta here, pasta there, pasta everywhere. I mean the thing that I can cook for the whole house. At home we don't really eat carbs. I don't think it is an option for this kids. Carb, mostly rice are their world. I still do cook my usual meal, usually I cook for myself. Let's see:

• Vege omellete
• Pan fried fish with whatever available in the fridge 
• Beef bacon (Fave!) with eggs
• Mashed potatoes (My ultimate comfort food) with everything else

Yup, that's pretty much summed up my everyday meal. Quick and easy meal for my tummy. Now that I think about it, I feel sorry for my future husband. But the good thing is my boyfriend is a good cook, especially Malaysian food. Guess I dont have to worry bout that. 

A Month in Michigan

It is officially month! Honestly, before coming here, I was so scared on how I'm gonna adapt with everything here but everything turns out way better than I ever expected. 

First of all, there are a lot of hijabist here. Malaysians doesn't count lah. I was expecting they would judge me or have this weird questions on my hijab. So weird calling it hijab. Okaylah, scarfla. Yup, apparently there are quiet a number of muslims here.  It reminded me of this story. During this orientation week, there is this thing we, international students, has to do. It is to update our location/activity in the States. Anyway, so my whole group are Malaysians, well INTEC students. Boring. I know right. We gathered in this computer lab and the intentional officer was like, 'finally I can say this to the whole room. Assalamualaikum.' I dont know why I almost tears up. 

Then there's the weather. I was 16 degree Celsius when I first arrived. I remembered thinking it was so cold. I couldn't sleep that night because of it. After awhile I seems to get used to it. During orientation I found out that the weather here is so unpredictable. The oritntion leader said that he once experienced snow, rain, sunshine and breeze all under the course of 4 hours. 16 deg cel is nice. 22 deg cel is hot. Yes hot. Unless there is wind. The wind is pretty strong, and cold. The past few days the temperature is so hot. 29deg cel. Malaysia still win lah. Cannot challenge that one. I miss talking in Malaysia English. 

Next up is the mall. Oh I dont really have problem with the food here. What I eat at home is basically what I eat here. I eat more rice than I eat back in Malaysia. I'm so gonna gain weight. Back to the mall or practically where I shop most of the time. Meijer is like the local Jusco. Just the Jusco part without the stores. No the sentences doesn't make sense doesn't it. Okay, the supermarket section without the store (MPH, Sephora, Hinode Shop, Daiso). Just the Jusco, Oh, Jusco Dato' Onn already opened! The grocery section at Meijer is amazing. A lot of choices. A lot. Household items usually we, my roommates and I, would buy at Walmart. There is also Oriental Mart in town but it doesnt really get my hype up. 

Other than that, life here is pretty similar to what I have in Malaysia. Probably because there are A LOT of Malaysian here, especially in the area I'm living in. Those who live in these neighborhood are my batchmate, yeah from INTEC - tak berkembang langsung - except for this one house. They are the only senior who live around here. As a good seniors to the juniors, their name will pop up whenever we need something. They other day, we need to print some stuff. What do we do? Just go and knock on their door. They live across the road. I think the best part is they are a little crazy. Not crazy crazy but the crazy type I would hang out with. Definitely not the kind of dudes that only talk about academic and and everything that come out of their mouth sound so formal. 

I have this Sexual Assault online seminar that I need to finish up. I just keep the video running while I;m typing this post. I dont know this post is a lil messy and all over the place. My friend just posted a picture of burger. Weyh, burger Ramli man. I miss burger Ramli. Enough now. Have a good day. 

Bucket List

During orientation week, they talked about this traditional bucket list. So I decided to try it out and add my own.

1. Try every flavor of Ice Cream from MSU Dairy Store. Turns out MSU make a pretty darn good ice cream, and they have a long list of flavors too... 
2. Take picture with Sparty. It actually take picture with sparty the actual mascot but I took picture with sparty the statue both in MSU Union and the side of the road (don't know the name of it)
3. Watch football game. 
4. Tour the Broad Art Museum. Already done this. I didn't get most of the art though.  
5. Try every restaurant around campus. Tried a few. Love a few. 
6. Paint the rock. Its a long way down the road but it would be awesome if I did.  
7. Participate in midnight scream. Its for on campus student but who knows maybe the kids from this neighborhood would make their own scream night. Yes, most who lives here are students.   
8. Visit MSU museum. 
9. Walkthrough the Beal Botanical Garden. I actually did this. There was this music in the garden thingy during orientation. I went there, checked it out and got free MSU dairy store ice cream. 
10. Investigate MSU urban legend. Probably after I graduate.
11. Watch  movies in Wells Hall. 
12. Tailgate.
13. Go to a concert. Not MSU related but yeah. Preferably Jonas concert
14. Visit every state. Also not MSU related. 
15. A big one. Go to Nellie's Southern Kitchen. This girl just need to fan girl.

Miles Away from Home

I'm proud to say that I'm officially a student of Michigan State University! Go green! Go white. 

DISCLAIMER: I rather talk about my boyfriend than my family because I just get sensitive when it come to my family. It doesnt mean I love them any less. 

It has been an amazing three weeks. I really would want to mash everything into one post but it could be longer than a Oxford Dictionary. So let's just cut to the chase... Long distance is freakin' HARD! No, I'm not talking about trust issues here. Fortunately, Ameer and I dont have that problem so far. Our relationship is getting more challenging. 

First there is the 12 hours time different which is not so bad. I think we manage to make it work. He has to wake up super early and sleep so late at night. As for me, I have my classes so I do wake up pretty early. 

It gets tougher when you see others just being happy with their partner and here you are trying not to cry hoping he would just be next to you.

A not so decent picture of Ameer. Despite that, it still make me smile. A picture that summarized who he is as a person. The guy that make me smile and laugh so hard to his stupid jokes. The guy that always turns something so stressful into a fun situation. The guy that comfort me and apologized even though it wasn't his fault. Here's one for you sayang. I miss you so much. Oh, he also likes to make weird-annoying face whenever I told him to pose nicely. 

I did however find a new boyfriend. Just a short three-years-contracted-relationship, maybe longer, with a charming fellow. He let me hug him and called him Ameer. He is a little bit hard compared to Ameer but the size is pretty similar. 

I was hoping by writing this post it would make thing easier, but nahh... I miss him even more. I'm gonna end it here. Down below was taken at Spartan Village. Look at the sky. So pretty... It was Eid celebration with MSO, hence the baju kurung. Also a funny story. Maybe next time. 

Honestly...

Hi everyone. I went for  a medical checkup yesterday and the guy try to take my blood for some lab test. The story of my life, only the pros can do that. True story. My veins are super small that only an experienced individuals can do it. Even my mum can't. Haha, sorry mum. 

I found this list on twitter. I figured it would be fun to answer it all. Well, I'll skip number 1 and 2. 

3. Bae name 

Ayden (not his real name...duh)

4. Fav boy/girl

Ayden 

5. Last ex. 

Err.. never really talk about him or planning to talk about him in this blog. I used to save his number as IZ in my contact. 

6. Do you still love your ex?

No, but I do miss him. We hardly talk or even look at each over after the breakup. 

7. Do you still stalk your ex?

Iz? No. My other ex. yes.

8. Fave quotes.

Live like you're at the bottom even if you're at the top - Jonas Brothers.

9. Name of your crush.